Wednesday, November 3, 2010

The Mission Call

Finally after waiting a whole month to come, it came!!!! I was planning on sharing the experience with everyone but when it came down to it, I just wanted to open the dang thing. It was my mom and I and my dad on the phone. I had the hardest time trying to open the thing with the nerves and the excitement of it all. I am the type of person who looks at the back of the book to see the ending. I did the same with the call but I couldn’t find it. So I started reading. I paused at the call and then said Germany Frankfurt Mission. My mom and I screamed and my dad was quiet. I handed the phone to my mom and my parents talked.

The funny part of this is I have been to Germany before. When I was nine my dad was calling to serve for the army in Heidelberg, Germany about an hour south of Frankfurt. We spent five months there and left early to take care of my great grandma. Germany was really not some place that I wanted to go again. I love Las Vegas and love my family and friends. Well the Lord had other plans, we went again when I was 13 and stayed for 10 months. Then we moved to Oregon.

I realized that the Lord knows me and truly does love me. I am not doubting where I am suppose to go, but really Germany. It is a place that I know and that I am comfortable with. Now all I have to do is figure out the map that I got. All I know is that Heidelberg is my mission






























Sunday, October 3, 2010

Mission papers

My Misson papers are in. I was excited before but now i am so excited i can't hold it in. I have a feeling of humility and joy. I want to do my best and i want to grow and learn. People ask me if i am scared...No i am not. I want to go and know what it is about. I want to teach and meet new people. I met with my Stake President a few weeks ago and he ask me. "Why are you serving a mision." I thought but i felt that my answer was too simple. "Because I love the Lord." He was pleased with the answer and continued on with the series of questions. Like most things in the church, after that interview, my testimony grew and the knowledge that i want to serve a mission. I am excited and i can't wait to see where that i am going. I will keep everyone posted.

Friday, June 18, 2010

Munchkin Pumpkin Man story

When i was little girl my dad would tell me Munchkin pumpkin man stories. So Father's Day i am making him a book with a Munchkin pumpkin man story:

Big Father’s Day Surprise

It was a beautiful day in Munchkin pumpkinvile. The sun looked like a great big orange.

“It such a beautiful day. I think I will work in the garden. What do you say Patrick?” Munchkin pumpkin man looked down at the beautiful dog lying in the sun. The dog start to wag his tail. “Well, I take that as a yes.”

The two friends set out to the garden to work. About half through the day, Munchkin pumpkin man realized that something wasn’t right. “Why is it so quiet?” he wondered out loud. Patrick the dog looks at him with a questioning look.

Now for those who don’t know Munchkin pumpkin Ville is a busy little town. Everyone is going places and enjoy the warm weather.

Now that he thought about it, he hadn’t seen Susannah Joan the Marshmallow girl and Alden Elizabeth the Apple girl in a few days. It was summer so school was out. Those two little girls were always over at his house, but lately they were missing. “Well, Patrick lets get cleaned up and go for a walk.”

Munchkin pumpkin man got cleaned up and as he was about to walk out the door. He heard a knock, “Who could that be?” he thought. But when he got to the door no one was there. He looked around to see if they were standing somewhere else. Nope, nothing. “Wait,” Munchkin pumpkin mad looked and saw something with bright colors, “Balloons!”

There were balloons tied to his mailbox, “What are the balloons for?” He walked over to the mailbox. He looked around and saw a note. “Today is your special day! Follow the Red balloons to where you need to go.”

Come on, Patrick. We have a big day planned for us.” They started to walk down the lane. As he got closer to town something weird happened the red balloons stopped all Munchkin man could see was a blue balloon.

He looked around the balloon and found another note. “Don’t red with anger, just follow the blue balloon and will soon calm down.”

“Well, Patrick. Guess we are following the blue balloons.” They continued down the road till once again there was a different color balloon and another note.

“Don’t get blue, just see some yellow! Follow the yellow balloon. You’re only a few steps closer to…” “To what?” he looked down at Patrick, “well we’re all must there.”

As Munchkin pumpkin man got closer to center of town, he realized it was quiet and no one was there. “Really, Patrick no one is any where today.”

The closer Munchkin pumpkin man got to the center of town the more colors came. He started to see every color of the rainbow.

“Well, someone has planned something big for us.” Patrick seemed to sense the excitement that was unseen to Munchkin pumpkin man.” What do you think could be happening?”

“Surprise!” the whole town shouted! Then he suddenly saw the sign, “Thank you for being great!”

“We planned this day just for you, Munchkin pumpkin man.” Said Susannah Joan the marshmallow girl.

“We, the town made all your favorite food plus more!” shouted Alden Elizabeth the Apple girl.

Munchkin pumpkin man got super excited and gave Susannah Joan and Alden Elizabeth a hug! “Thank you so much for makes me feel so much! We live in the best town in the world!”

And they all partied and had a blast enjoying a beautiful evening with the people that he loved the most

Sunday, May 30, 2010

Big Plans

Big plans-

I am at time in my life, where my plans are changing. I just turned 21, I am officially a adult. Through it doesn’t seem like it. I have so much I want to do but yet I still really want to be that little girl, in my room playing with my dollhouse (which I still have). My plans are changing. No longer do I have the same reason for stay at BYU-Idaho. Friends came and go, but it is the family that is forever. I learned that hard way this year. So I want to be closer to my family. It was this weekend that I made the decision that I want to be much closer to my family. Plus the weather in Rexburg is driving me crazy. I really need more sunny and warm weather! So I am making a change, I am still planning going into Marriage and Family with a minor in Child Development. So know I have to find a school somewhere close to Las Vegas. So that is plan so far…I still am planning on going on a mission.

But that is what I am thinking, friends come and go but family is eternal. And it took some trials and a lot of love to realize that really where I want to be is closer to my family. So that is what I want more then anything, I want to be with my family.

Tuesday, May 25, 2010

Poker Face

You don’t know everything that is going on in my life. But yet you are trying to fix it. Do we really have to put on a “happy face” all the time? When we are home why do we have to put on a special face? There is so many different face that we put on daily. Our happy face, the masked Mormon face, the everything is ok face and so much more. What face do you put on daily? For a long time I have pretended to have a happy face but sometime all I was to do is let that face go and just feel what I am really feeling. Are we willing to show people the real us? Or are we just going to pretend the rest of our lives?

Another question that I have, when is it right to grow up? I just turn 21 and I have always been mature and I have pick friend who would help me grow. But what if you live with people who can’t seem to grow up? What do you do? On many occasions I had to hold my tongue with things at are say and done. But what do you say? Does living by example really help and teach a person? Can you show someone that you can still have fun but you don’t need to act like you are five?

Not only do we do this with our roommates but our “friends” too. We meet new people and we are putting on a special mask. But when they see who they really are, why are we so shocked? So when someone shows you who they really are, believe them. It seems that when you meet someone you need to show them your true self. So take off the mask and be yourself. And soon you will learn that people are ether not going to like you or not. But what so you care, you are being yourself!

Thursday, May 20, 2010

Chapter 3-Boys

“Mom! Where are you?”

“In the kitchen!” Caterine called out.

Within seconds, a young girl came into the room. She was a beautiful red hair; you think she was Irish, from her hair to her green eyes and beautiful ivory skin.

“Hey mom! Jon asked me to the senior prom but I really don’t want to go with him. Zach is going to ask me, so will you help me decide what to do? Oh, I am sorry, who are you?” She looked at me.

“Harmony, this Lily, Alice’s friend. You remember she will be staying with us for a few months,” she paused and looked at me, “or maybe longer.”

I smiled at her, maybe I will stay longer.

“Well, Lily. I’m Harmony and I am grateful to meet you. She went over to her mom. “Do you want help?”

“Do you really think I do?” her mom asked.

“Of course you do. If you didn’t then you wouldn’t have kids?” she laughed.

“Yes! She finally gets it.” Caterine smiled at me, “that is what kids are for to be slave to their parents.” She laughed and turned to the sink.

It was so nice and weird to be in a kitchen where people actually work in it.

“So what is this problem with what’s his name Zach and Jack?” I asked Harmony.

“Oh Zach and Jon, two boys with no brains.” She started to laugh. “They are really good guys but I am not into them at all.”

“So who is the real guy that you want to go with?” I asked.

“His name is Charlie and I think that he asked Michelle and I think that she said yes.”

“You think? You don’t know?”

“I heard from Trish, who heard for Roger, who talked to Brooke, who is best friends with Annie who is the ex of Charlie, who found out that he was going to ask Michelle, because she has a nice butt.” She rolled her eyes.

I couldn’t help but laugh when I hear her reason. “Are you kidding me?”

“No.” she looked at me and then to her mother. Her mother was no help either, she was laughing as hard as I was.

“When are you going are you two going to stop laughing?" Harmony asked.

Her mom answered, “When you realize how silly you sound. I love having a teenager in the house.”

“What is so funny in here.”

“The fact that your daughter has a great source to figure out if a boy likes her or not.” laughed Caterine.

I assume that this was Mr. Daven. He lends in and kisses his wife and the cheek. “Really, who is the boy this week?”

“This week, what do you mean this week?” ask Harmony.

“Harmony, you are always coming home with some type of boy problem. So like I said what is the boy problem this week?” said her dad.

“Oh dad, you are so funny.” She laughed at her father.

“I think you should just ask him yourself, come up with some fun way to ask him,” I said to Harmony “Do you know this boy?”

“Yes, we have been friends for a long time. And we have liked each other off and on for years.”

“Then go for it but keep the other two boys on stand by just in case he says no.” I suggested.

“Can I do that?” asked Harmony.

“Yeah, you are young and there is no need for you to be with one boy.”

“Have you dated?”

“Yeah and trust me none of them were worthy my time.” I smiled towards her. They started to laugh.

“Harmony, will you please set the table, I think that we are going to have five.” Asked her mother.

“Yeah? But aren’t we six?” asked Harmony.

“Nope, Bennett is not coming home tonight.”

“But he promise he would.”

“I know he felt really bad but Victoria needs him to come to some dinner.” All of sudden, the air changed. I looked to Harmony; her face was really red and not was there hurt and pain but anger.

“Oh my gosh that girl has got him wrapped around her little finger. She is so selfish.”

“Harmony, don’t say that. She is a very nice girl.”

“Really, mom are you blind. She is only nice to you because she has to be. But when it comes to Camilla and I, we are dragged in the dirt and the mud. She is a witch and care about no one beside herself and her newest sugar daddy.” Harmony laughed and walked out of the room.

Caterine looked at me, “the scary thing is she is right. Victoria was raised in a LDS family that think they are better then every one else. It is really hard to be around that family at times.”

“LDS Family what do you mean by that?” I asked.

“Oh I am sorry. I forgot that you aren’t LDS. They feel like they are prefect and do everything right way.”

“Well then why is your son with her?”

“Because he will do anything that girl wants him to.” Harmony said as she walked into the room to get more things for the table. Caterine silently agreed with the statement.

“So are you going to do something about it?” I asked.

Mr. Daven looked up from the paper; “We have been open with him about how we feel. He listens to a point and nods his head and walks away.”

He looked at his wife and she finished his thought, “We want him to make his own choices. As much as a parent wants to get involved with their children discussion, we have to step back and let them figure things out for themselves. Of course he knows that he can come to us and talk to us but Bennett is not one for talking his feelings.”

“Well I am sorry sweetheart that was my fault, I never did like to work out my problems.” He laughed towards his wife.

“You are sweet Peyton. Why don’t you go help your daughter with the table.” Peyton got up and kissed his wife on the cheek and walked out of the kitchen.

This was a new thing for me; it is weird to see parents who really care about the child.

Flashback:

“Mom! Are you home?” I walked into the house, “Mom! Where are you?”

Eva the maid walked in, “Oh Miss Emerson, your parents are out for the evening. Didn’t they tell you?”

I rolled my eyes, “Do you think that they told me?”

Eva smiled at me; “Lily, don’t be mad…” she trailed off.

“Mad why would I be mad, my parents are never home and when they are home they are trying to control me. Yeah I have no reason to be mad!” I yelled as I marched to my room.

Later that night, my mom knocked on my door.

“Lily, can I come in?” I didn’t say anything. “Lily, answer me right now.” She tried to walk into my room, “Lily, you open this door right now.” She was starting to yell. At this point I knew that she was drunk and if I let her then we would have problems.

“Eva! Eva! Open Lily’s door now.” My mother yelled. I knew that I had to get out of here and fast. I grabbed my bag and opened my window.

“Lily, if you don’t open this door right now. You are in serious trouble.” Yep, my mom was drunk. It didn’t take a lot for my mom to become drunk but when she was drunk she is mad and she hits. I climbed out the wall and down the wall. I ran to the small woods behind our house. At that point I heard my mother knock my door down.

“LILY! Where the hell are you? Eva, where is she?”

“I don’t know, Mrs. Emerson. She came right up to her room when she got home.” I could tell that Eva was crying.

“You let her go, you let her go out of your sight. I have always told you never to leave her alone. Roger! Lily is missing and it’s all Eva fault. Roger, where are you? Did you hear me, Lily is gone.” My mom was yelling to my father. I could see my father in his study. My father understood that sometimes you need to get away from my mother. I watched as he rolled his eyes and got out of is favorite chair.

“Martha, come down. It isn’t Eva fault.” I watch him walk up to see my mom. I was tired of watch so I went to my secret clubhouse deeper into the forest. As I was looking up at the stars that night I wished to be somewhere someone loved me.

“Lily? Are you ok?” asked Caterine.

I woke up from my trans, “Yeah I’m fine. Just thinking.”

“Well dinner is ready and Camilla will be home soon. So let’s go eat.”

Wednesday, May 19, 2010

Kissing

"For a kiss to be really good, you want it to mean something. You want it to be with someone you can't get out of your head so that when your lips finally touch, you feel it everywhere. A kiss so hot, so deep, you never want to come up for air. You can't cheat your first kiss. Trust me. You don't want to, 'coz when you find that right person you'll first kiss, it's everything” Grey’s Anatomy

When someone tells you that I are not planning on kissing anyone till they get married, what do you say to them? Is kissing really important in a relationship?

For me, I like kissing it is the natural woman in me. But when a guy tells me that he does want to kiss anyone till he is married. That is a big decision that takes a lot of thought. But the question that I ask is kissing, making out, NICMO sessions, or any physical contact. I understand that we need to have some type of physical contact in marriage but what about before. Where are our standards now days?

I am the topic of person where I like hugs and kisses but I am willing to put a side my feelings to satisfy the other person. That is what you do in a relationship. It is not a deal breaker for me.

Elder Bednar says it best, in the world that I can’t describe in anyway better then he can. http://lds.org/ldsorg/v/index.jsp?hideNav=1&locale=0&sourceId=618e85f10e6fb010VgnVCM1000004d82620a____&vgnextoid=024644f8f206c010VgnVCM1000004d82620aRCRD

What do kisses mean to you? I wish that I saved my first for my future husband. I had a young woman’s leader who saved her first kiss for her future husband. I really think that it is sweet and surprise. You might think that I am crazy, that I am out of mind to think this way. But it is the truth; kisses are something special to me. Like my testimony, I am willing to share it with you only if you are worthy to hear it. And I am willing to share my kisses with someone who loves me and cares about me. I want things to have a special meaning for me, can they be for you?